17JAN09

我痛恨别人需要我时对我很好，用后拍拍屁股就离开！真想curse你们,G&R.
我想回家了，都没心情要把手头上的东西弄好。sigh

又一场无规划的说

看见别人的blog，总觉得他们好好哦。 有好的生活，开心的，工作的，出去玩的。 我也要！但是自己的两头不到岸始终害了自己，没有让自己好好有规律的生活。

现在最痛苦的是，我竟然花了整个下午做着无头绪的tutorial。 才一题叻，够没有？ thesis一点也不想动。烦啊。。。。。。。。。。

话说回来：
这个学期是最后一个学期了，也是最难的！
没想到，四科四科都浆难！这UTAR，明知学生最后一个学期要联谊和为CGPA而加油的啦。。哪里知道这些死人assignments这么难，又麻烦！竟然还要做一份简约的research project！有些星期甚至要读6份上的articles，有些一份都超越二十或三十页数。shit lar！不想念了

还有，那天去了JPN做了IC说了骗话！！哈哈，不错吧。学了别让眼神出卖你这招终于派上场用了。Yahoo~~

绝对的！说说说，无规划的说！！ 发泄 （3）

11-12JAN2009
I realised i lost the purse in my own hostel not in the camp site. But i am sure i did bring it into the camp. So, i did blame myself for being so careless but not others.

As PeiLing promised in advance, i went to her house (at Klang) after the camp session. Her house is really nice, comfortable and definately is a good place to stay. I am happy to have a visit to her house. But, i did not own a special place for myself as i am just a guess to them. After her mother had trim my hair, we went to have our dinner at a Japanese restaurant. Wow!! fantastic! nice crusine with nice environment. We had our dinner and shared our opinion towards the camp.

We come out with a same conclusion, this camp definately has its pros and cons. But we appreciate their efforts and at least we did learnt a bit Bit lar....not that useless as i mention in earlier....We love the group switch session, it's a good experience i had in this camp. the 1st team i joined was a dull and keep lossing in every games. Well, i accepted the fact that we are the losser because we lost from our spirit. 1st, we lack a leader. 2nd,we lack of ppl that are passionate. 3rd, we contributed ideas, but there is no one willing or have guts to make final conclusion as what a leader shall do. LOL...........main reasons!! Our own spirit come out only after we shifted to a group that has passionate kind of persons and leader. I enjoyed the games with them. But at the end of the day, we got to shift back to our original group which at 1st i was unwilling to let go. But after back to the group, we realised that each other are spreading their spirit within the group. The group was full of energy and passion. Wow..I really like the result behind this arrangement. Thanks Mr Ng. Muaks~~~~~~


Sunday noon, peiling family and i went to a restaurant located within the Klang Jusco. 龙的传人！nice foods? ehm..i have no idea. But the environment within Klang Jusco is really diff as compared to those i had shopped. This branch is really nice with its special buidling structure and arrrangement. I like the feeling being a shopper in that building. In conclusion, shopping environment has significant impact over customer satisfaction. However, i didn manage to buy anything for myself as i lost my purse. I didnt have sufficient cash and any Atm cards with me. WUWU~~

CANT TAHAN!! to be cont when i free~~ frankly speaking, i know how poor is my language in this post. But, i am so natural in writing this~~ which i didnt amend much and upload it directly..............................wuwuawua!!

绝对的！说说说，无规划的说！！ 发泄 （2）

8-11JAN2009
LeadershipCamp organised by CDS。 ehm。。可以说，浪费了我的宝贵RM150。或许学的东西太general，也在之前的SoftSkill学过了，觉得没用！

启程前在UTAR有个meeting，破冰之类的节目。一眼看了就晓得，我的组没有出色的领导。我也不是个出色的领导，当然也不现丑。好才又 TseYing做Observer。一切由她开始引领。Before depart, one thing is that, the committee themselves also dunno whether they would supply the three days drinking water or not..damn...made me went back to home and took the bottel to filled up drinking water...and carried it alone to uni. by the time i reached uni, every1 had used that kind of eyesight to look at me. SHIT...i felt i myself like a stupid idiot....plz, committee... when i ask, u should give me the accurate and precise answer immediately. Never use ur own judgement which u are not very certain with that particular matter.
The moral of the story is, plz look for the right person for the matters addressed.

1st day, i was being locked in the toilet while i was bathing. SHIT............of coz i know this is not committees' problem. But is the camp site problem. So, i would just blamed myself for being so soiiiiiiiiii...Another thing, I lost my purse in this camp!! All the IC, Atms cards lost! Wuwu! Such a MEMORABLE camp in my life. I would never forget how this camp FRUSTRATED me! Not their fault again, is my fault. I never approach them to keep my important stuffs as they never offer this to all the participants.

Now, i regret...i SPEND MY TIME IN THIS USELESS(for me) CAMP. I LOST MY PURSE. I ALSO LOST MY COMMITMENT/CONFIDENCE TOWARDS THEM. I LOST MY RM150. LOL

Everything has its pros and cons. Same goes to this activity. One thing i really appreciate is that they able to raise/build up the team spirit through the teambuilding over those activities. Good，i really saw many participants show and truly enjoy the moment they work together. Perhaps, i locked myself! i dun really enjoy that moment in the camp. I am unmotivated!!

camp的缺点：
1.没有effective time management
2.没有好的security
3.没有心的体验（我都玩过，甚至更好玩）
4.games很沉闷，旧
5. No proper announcement, allocation, distribution....sucks
太多了，说不完。无论如何，都是他们的effort，心思，联合和用心的举办。人从mistake学起，加油吧。overall, i would rate them at 6 on a 10 point scale!!

As conclusion, I realised i lost the spirit to work in a team. I guess the problem is with me. Not the organising team... (I'm so so so frustrated and high tempere when i am writing this, Can u Imagine!!)--------------> Lost my purse=i got to replace all my cards and wallet!!!!! Hate It!!

绝对的 ！！说说说，无规划的说！！ 发泄 (1)

对！ 绝对是无规划的。太多天没把心事写下了！原因是没时间，也没力气，更没有心情~~话说。。。

6JAN2009
Thesis！Thesis！放假也把自己的时间表排得满满，很累！22Dec2008-5Jan2009的K- Worker training sessions终于完毕。果然，长期的接触必定留下美好的友情和难忘的回忆！当时的心情是想快快完毕手上的thesis 吧！烦

7JAN2009
见了supervisor，像屁这样！她不懂我们，我也不想理她，更何况是thesis~想把它烧掉！Thesis，你是我的噩梦更是我的负担！

和PeiLing去One-U， 跑了跑，始终没买下任何一样东西！而她，买了一个钱包给她心爱的老人。Tough 牌子的钱包RM266。。。。呜呜!

晚间，决定去老人做工的地方吃晚餐。我被店的室内设计而深深的吸引了！住宅西方式的餐厅！赞！食物？？ehm，或许我不太会享受吧！好不好吃我不会分。间 接，老人帮我算塔纙派！学业，两头不到岸，容易分心。 事业，以后将会遇见一位很Powerful的老板，但会给老板骂得很惨！呜呜。。厉害吧！三点接近四点才回家。都不知谈了什么淡这么久，真费神~~

EnRong & Cally

I feel so warm when receive EnRong and Cally message this evening. Such a warmest message i get from them. Especially the sentence mentioning that they never stop for keep me in prayer. wuwu~~just like wanna to cry. Really appreciate it~~!!

Hi..how are u? at here never fail to keep u in d prayer..
wish u all the best..God's be with u always..tale good k...:)

I know Cally at the 1st place where Sis.Yien was helping me to find a room in sg long a year ago. Subsequently i know that she is a Foochow and a christian too. Therefore, i had approached her to bring me to methodist church to have sunday service. Since that point of time, i was following them to church as they are willing come to my previous condo(Evergreen) to fetch me.

They both is a lovely couple where they always hang out together, go to church together (as what i can see). But one thing is, they are not living together even they are couple and staying within the same condo. See, what's a blessed couple where they always keep God's words in their heart and relationship. Here, i would like to THanks them again!! eventhough they will never read this post, but i wanted to keep my appreciation in words.



Lastly, praise to the Lord. Thanks dad for letting us to meet up and may God bless and be with them all the times^.^

Wonderful and Memorable day,5Jan2009

3 good news of the day 5Jan2009

1. Finally, i had finished my 10days k-worker (softskills program) officially. Feel so sad at the end of the program. I am going to miss those days in this tranining program....Thanks God for letting me to join this group. i felt so lucky that i had made such decision. haha!!~~

2. FInal exam result in terms of grade was released. I took two papers for last sem. And thanks God again given me intelligence and emotion stability while i was in the exam hall. I got As for both papers. Well, it's the 1st time and the last for me to get 4flat in uni.

3. THanks William for the lovely interior design magazine. I really love it~~

Overall, it was a wonderful and memorable day for me!!

该清醒！

1. 当我们不再关心团契生活，其他的一切也就同样走下坡。
2. 圣经说没有参与教会的基督徒，就好像没有身体的器官、没有羊群的羊、没有家的小孩，都是不正常的情形。圣经说：“你与其他信徒同属于神家的人。”
3. 单单参加崇拜众会或作个被动的旁观者，你绝对无法长大成熟。只有积极参加当地教会生活，灵命才会增长。圣经说：“教会中每一个人都各按其职、各尽所能，彼此相助，教会便在爱中建立起来，并且渐渐长大。”

标杆人生17-点醒了自己离开了教会好久了，没有参与教会/团契，更没有属灵的生活！对不起，我主我神

Thesis

Dunno whether am I a poor fellow or what!! so many tasks are waiting me to do! especially this thesis~!@%$#^& I am so frustrated!

I loss my life, I loss my smile, I loss my confident, I loss my power~~

DIssapointed with Public speaking on 3Jan,2009 (9/10 of K-workers)

Noob!!arg~~~I perform badly for my public speaking today. Like a stupid fellow on the stage dunno what's she is talking and where is the direction. Huh. i admit that i am really weak in presentation. that's the fact. I can accept ppl critisms and i am appreciate it. As they are the professional trainners in which their feedback are really beneficial and useful for me to improve myself. Just one thing is, i did practiced. But when come to the stage, i am totally blank especially when i know my slide had gone due to laptop technical problem...Sigh~~i am really dissapointed with my own performance.

1st wish of the year: practice and improve own english speaking skills